I am cautioously announcing 30lbs. I say cautiosly because I weigh mysef far too often. I know, from allllll my days at weight watchers that this is a bad thing, but I do it anyway. I usually weigh at night and in the morning. My weight at night is often as much as five pounds more than my weight during the day, so I usually don't announce a loss until I have seen that number at least two or three times at night. I prematurely announced 30 lbs. to some of my family, and I felt bad, but hey it was an honest mistake. Now I'm seeing 272 more often than not, and last night I saw 271. that was exciting because it was a night weight, but it was gone, back up to 272.5 this morning. However, 272.5 still constitutes a 30 lb loss from my high (non-preggo) weight of 302.5. I'm trying not to push it though, not think of it as a whole number. I'm just concentrating on getting back to the 60's. that'd be great. I've decided to quit making everything such a big damn prodction...not dieting, if I'm hungry I eat, try to stay on the lihgter side. If I go out walking and don't walk an "acceptable" three miles, big deal, I still walked. I have to find a way to take the presure off myself or I'll look like ten pounds of shit in a nine pound bag for the rest of my life...although now I'm begggining to notice I am down to about the 9.5 lbs of shit look...little bits of progress.

I've been walking, sometimes with Sophia on her bike, sometimes alone. I have to admit guiltily I like going by myself. I'm discovering a rather "Otey-esque" streak of desire to be alone for the last few years. There are just certain things, driving, walking, etc., that I prefer to do alone. Wonder if we're distantly related to Greta Garbo? Don't get me wrong, I don't insist on being alone, and sometimes it is nice to do things like walking with the family, but it's also nice to listen to loud music instead of Sophia complaining about how it's hot.

Well, so much for my weight tangent...I'm going to attempt putting a new song on my player...if it doesn't work, Dwayne'll do it.
love ya'll.
Aly-Oops.