I have not posted in a long while. For anyone who reads this who doesn't know, my mother passed away November 20. We were very close, and the holidays have been difficult for me and my whole family. I feel a strong need to get back to this, however, and motivate myself again.
Today I was thinking about all the worries fat people put up with, and it began to evolve into a list of reasons I want to get this 100+ pounds off me. One of the things I hate most is going to visit people in their homes. I hate it because I'm always worried...what if there isn't a chair big enough for me? then I sometimes sit and think "am I taking up the whole couch?" then walking into a waiting room I always think about the seats.
I also hate hate hate shopping for clothes. Don't get me wrong, I have always hated shopping for clothes. even when thin my body doesn't fit the traditional steroetype, so clothes shopping has always been a chore, but now it is a downright nightmare. I have to go to the shops that only sell fat clothes, and foget forget forget about buying bras that fit. Now that Thaddeus has cut way back on his nursing, I'd like to get some new bras. I emailed a "bratician" my measurements, and she says my size is..READY? 46I. that's right an I cup for gosh sakes! I have to internet order them, only a few companies make them, and they are about 50 bucks each. I always had big boobs, but damn.
Then, there are the health concerns. This is much bigger for my husband, because he seems to have a lot more problems due to his weight, but believe me I'm catching up. the most annoying right now is carpal tunnel. driving, eating, talking on the phone, using the mouse, macrame, latch hook, all range from painful to impossible.
I also want to be able to play with my children, and not die when they are young.
Today we are going to tour and possibly join the huntington YMCA. it is the only place I"ve found with a nursery for the kids so they can play (supervised of course) while I work out. I feel a bit ambiguous about it, but I ultimately think they will enjoy it as much as I will.
All for now!
Weight and BFP
batteries are dead..l8r