started walking again on a reular basis last week. I've been keeping track of my steps with my pedometer, but then the battery died. I guess it just wasn't used to actually getting used. Still no jobs. went to apply for a posting in the next county (cabell) and talked to my friend who just left the position. he said don't be surprised if I don't get it because therere is a long term sub doing it and she is music certified, so blah blah blah. there is also another job in pleasanyts county that dwayne and I are both going to apply for, but we probably won't get that one either
so here we sit..money dwindling, house not sold, don't know where to go or what to do next. been thinking about selling this place moving to moms house and one or both of us subbing. that would avoid the pestky problem of getting another mortgage since sub teaching isn't a real job..just don't want to live there. oh well...can't always get what you want.
so we continue to search and continue to hope. I can sub as soon as my cert comes through. unfortunatekly that could be another five weeks or more. I never thought I'd be here. I thought something would work out. what I get for thinking.
still fat. starting to not give a shit. at least food makes me happy for a minute or two.
weight 298.5 lost a pound woo fuckin hoo.
BFP 45
I'm linking a new page. I'm going to put my weird ass "poetry" on it. I put that in quotes because it's really more stream of conciousness it certainly doesn't rhyme. if you want to look I'd reccomend highly against it, but go ahead.this isn't mine obviously, but it's pretty accurate.

It's the perfect time of year
Somewhere far away from here
I feel fine enough, I guess
Considering everything's a mess.
There's a restaurant down the street
Where hungry people like to eat
I could walk, but I'll just drive
It's colder than it looks outside.

It's like a dream - you try to remember but it's gone, then ya
Try to scream but it only comes out as a yawn, when ya
Try to see the world beyond your front door.
Take your time cos the way I rhyme's gonna make you smile, when ya
Realise that a guy my size might take a while, just to
Try to figure out what all this is for.

It's the perfect time of day
To throw all your cares away
Put the sprinkler on the lawn
And run through with my gym shorts on.
Take a drink right from the hose
And change into some drier clothes
Climb the stairs up to my room
Sleep away the afternoon.

It's like a dream - you try to remember but it's gone, then ya
Try to scream but it only comes out as a yawn, when ya
Try to see the world beyond your front door.
Take your time cos the way I rhyme's gonna make you smile, when ya
Realise that a guy my size might take a while, just to
Try to figure out what all this is for.
Pinch Me
Pinch Me
Cos I'm still asleep.
Please God
Tell Me
That I'm still asleep

On an evening such as this
It's hard to tell if I exist
If I Packed the car and leave this town
Will you notice that I'm not around?
I could hide out under there
I just made you say 'underwear'
I could leave but I'll just stay
All my stuff's here anyway.

It's like a dream - you try to remember but it's gone, then ya
Try to scream but it only comes out as a yawn, when ya
Try to see the world beyond your front door.
Take your time cos the way I rhyme's gonna make you smile, when ya
Realise that a guy my size might take a while, just to
Try to figure out what all this is for.
Try to figure out what all this is for.
Try to see the world beyond your front door.
Try to figure out what all this is for.

bye ya'll, till later.