I'm not feeling very strong today. I'm sick, and Thaddeus has had pneumonia again. He's getting better, thank God, but buying his antibiotics wiped me out. I have no idea how I'm going to get to work this week. Money from the male biological counterpart (mine) did not arrive as promised..gee why am I not surprised? He called me sunday from honululu (yeah you can read that again thats cool.) and I asked him about it. he apologized and said if they hadn't sent it he'd send it from there, but who knows how long that will take? Meantime I had to pay my water bill yesterday...there it goes there it goes there it goes again. I must really love being in the hole...I go there so often!

Oh well, no sense wallowing in self pity. I'll take care of it somehow I always do. Or rather, let's tell the truth and shame the devil, someone else takes care of it for me. I just hate when my babies are sick, and I hate being sick. I need to work on finding a job so I can live through summers. I've pretty well come to the conclusion that even though I love teaching, it isn't working for me. I'm going to make some calls today looking into lpn programs and maybe social work licensure. I"ve already applied for a shitload of postal exams. I WILL NOT LIE DOWN and let this beat me.

I guess I did get some good news...The kids are back on medical cards. I got that call just now as I was wallowing..thank you Lod for that little (well huge) bit of uplifting news. I may even be able to get refunded for the medicine I already paid for. Granted it will take a while, but praise Jesus.

I'm keeping Sophia home today too. we went to bed at 10:30 and she's still sawing logs, as is Thaddy. I'm going to let them sleep. I take him back to the doc today to see if he can yet go back to daycare. Etiher way I have to go to work tomorrow. I've been out three days now, and concerts wat for no man. I also have to find out about all county, nad the combined concert with west middle.

and a little more good news...the holidays did not expand my ass. i'm still at an obese 228.5 with BMI of 33.7. only 22 mored pounds and I'll be "silghtly overweight!"

love to all, especially any cute rich guys out there who'd just love to take in a poor single mom and her two kids ha ha..I know, a lot of people have it a lot worse
pacem