got a job offer yesterday and had to turn it down. it was in jefferson county, aaaaallllll the way over in the eastern panhandle, close to baltimore and D.C. too far, and the housing is astronomical. couldnt even afford to rent. oh well. still no news about cabell or pleasants county big shocker there.
sorted through some of mom's jewelry today. found a necklace that my G-mother (nanny to those in the know) gave me a long time ago...a small diamond pendant. I took it off when I was getting ready to go to the prom, could've sworn I put it in the jewelry box, and never found it again. so nice I found it. I caught more hell about that from mom and nanny than you could believe...
DH has not had a ciggy since last night right before bed..GO HUBBY!!!
had a good old fashioned pig out tuesday night. I wish I could deal with my shit another way but everything either gives you cancer, makes you fat, kills your liver or does all at the same time. my mind keeps returning to a quote from Bridget jones...herm father says he doesn't want to give up cigarettes because he takes great comfort in the thought that they might kill him before things get worse...I find that very apt not to mention funny. I keep hitting the fricking caps lock on the keyboard....So how do skinny people deal with their shit? maybe they don't have anything to deal with bc they are so thin, and to be thin you must be rich and if one is rich one has no problems. yeah don't think I actually believe that, but I do wonder. How do people who are so thin and beautiful deal with life when they 1) lose a parent and/or
2) have n o fucking job
so this week I have gotten absolutely no exercise, and have eaten like the pig that I am. actually I have done ok except for tuesday night still don't wat to get on the scale but I will do itfor you if you insist.
weel I must be up over 300 now..the scale just says error...I hate myself.
guess I'll go drink a bunch of water and pee out my eyeballs and see what the deal is then. still enough light for a walk.I think I'll change my subtitle to online weight gain journal.
bye all.